I find I have a love/hate relationship with your story. I hurts my heart greatly to learn of the pain and feeling of worthlessness that was your life growing up as well as the self destructive behaviors in response. But I love and admire the pattern of finding beautiful, creative ways to express the beauty that was there within you all along. And even in the face of lack of respect for your abilities from most of the adults around you, you managed to find the confidence to tackle life challenges knowing you could do it.
That’s excellent writing to touch such strong emotions and tell of such powerful experiences so different from mine in ways that I can relate to so powerfully!
Jacqueline, I have read your comment multiple times. I, too, have a love/hate relationship with many parts of this story. What strikes me most profoundly with your comment is that I truly feel seen and heard. I’m not sure how to respond to that level of generosity. Thank you, from my heart and all the messy parts of me.
Quite an adventure at the young age of 20-21-22!! You and your Mom must have had some heavy karmic ties for you to feel so responsible for her. I am hearing that you were sort of a prisoner of that connection. Hope that today that has changed to become easier. Now if you had those connections with SooSoo, that would be much more fun!!
Hi Michael, yeah, it was a lot to carry. Some of it had to do with familial trauma bonding and also the contracts we all made prior to this lifetime. I have had many years to work through it all, and the healing process is revealed further along in the manuscript. Soo Soo is a great companion, loving, kind, fierce and loyal. Thanks for reading and hanging in there with me!
I find I have a love/hate relationship with your story. I hurts my heart greatly to learn of the pain and feeling of worthlessness that was your life growing up as well as the self destructive behaviors in response. But I love and admire the pattern of finding beautiful, creative ways to express the beauty that was there within you all along. And even in the face of lack of respect for your abilities from most of the adults around you, you managed to find the confidence to tackle life challenges knowing you could do it.
That’s excellent writing to touch such strong emotions and tell of such powerful experiences so different from mine in ways that I can relate to so powerfully!
Jacqueline, I have read your comment multiple times. I, too, have a love/hate relationship with many parts of this story. What strikes me most profoundly with your comment is that I truly feel seen and heard. I’m not sure how to respond to that level of generosity. Thank you, from my heart and all the messy parts of me.
Quite an adventure at the young age of 20-21-22!! You and your Mom must have had some heavy karmic ties for you to feel so responsible for her. I am hearing that you were sort of a prisoner of that connection. Hope that today that has changed to become easier. Now if you had those connections with SooSoo, that would be much more fun!!
Hi Michael, yeah, it was a lot to carry. Some of it had to do with familial trauma bonding and also the contracts we all made prior to this lifetime. I have had many years to work through it all, and the healing process is revealed further along in the manuscript. Soo Soo is a great companion, loving, kind, fierce and loyal. Thanks for reading and hanging in there with me!
Who knew my dear Marnie? All those jobs, all that searching. Can't wait for the next installment!!
Thanks Star! I am so glad you have joined me in this adventure!