3: A Mother's Unraveling

Reading time: 14 minutes

Thanks for joining me! This email contains the third chapter of my “Dreaming In the Real” manuscript, a work in progress. Bi-weekly episodes reveal how immersing myself in the natural world while preparing vibrational essences helped me gain insight and healing after my adult life crumbled due to unaddressed trauma and childhood adversity.

PLEASE START HERE to access the episode list and preceding chapters. A book is best read chronologically.

I am releasing the following chapters for free.
Introduction
Chapter 1: A Dangerous Road Home
Chapter 10: Embracing Change – Smoke, Wind, and Whitebark Pine
However, the rest of the manuscript requires a paid subscription. If the cost is a hardship, email marnie@dreaminginthereal.com, and I will be happy to offer a scholarship.

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CONTENT GUIDANCE: This manuscript tackles sensitive themes of parental neglect, abuse, drugs, and domestic violence. Reader discretion is advised.

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“Trauma is personal. It does not disappear if it is not validated. When it is ignored or invalidated the silent screams continue internally heard only by the one held captive.”
~ Danielle Bernock, Emerging With Wings: A True Story of Lies, Pain, And The LOVE that Heals

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IN THE SPRING of 1969, my dad bought and refurbished a twenty-five-foot moving truck. That summer, we drove to California. My dad in the moving van, my sister Nancy and her husband in a red Rambler station wagon overflowing with luggage and three kids, and my mom and I in my dad's baby-blue Chrysler New Yorker, a fancy car with push-button transmission and windows. I shared a wide back seat with three Siamese cats as we navigated I-80’s frightening labyrinth of long-haul truckers.