9: Finding Clarity in Chaos

Reading time: 6 minutes

Hey there! This short chapter marks the end of Part One, Digging Through the Rubble. After releasing this backstory, I’ve discovered ways to condense the litany of trauma while keeping the story intact, so this first section will undergo change in the coming months. Thanks for hanging in there with me!

Part Two, Mother Earth and Me, marks a profound before and after. We will embark on a journey into the unseen realms of the natural world, where I discovered a fundamental connection between human beings and the benevolent forces of nature that exist beyond our everyday awareness. Join me as I encounter plant spirits, star beings, and ancestors who taught me how to reframe the past and conjure something new and extraordinary.

To access the episode list and preceding chapters, please START HERE. It's best to read the story chronologically. I am releasing the following chapters for free.
Introduction
Chapter 1: A Dangerous Road Home
Chapter 10: Embracing Change – Smoke, Wind, and Whitebark Pine
However, the rest of the manuscript requires a paid subscription. If the cost is a hardship, email marnie@dreaminginthereal.com, and I will be happy to offer a scholarship.

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“Healing generational trauma takes courage and strength. It’s common for dysfunctional families to deny their abuse. They silence victims and dump toxic shame onto them. Complicit families keep abuse alive from generation to generation, until one brave survivor boldly ends the cycle of abuse.”  ~ Dana Arcuri, Soul Rescue

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WHILE I WAS at The Meadows, the treatment center I entered after the violence that occurred outside of Taos, my therapist reminded me how fortunate I was to be alive, not merely because of violence but because engrained survival stress and unhealthy protective patterns were dictating how I met my needs. With his help, I reexamined experiences involving my father's anger, my mother's helplessness, my tumultuous teenage years, and my time in foster care. Delving into my past, I began comprehending how my early experiences had influenced my adult relationships and decision-making. In addition, I gained insight into personal and energetic boundaries, which had never been on my radar before.

"Boundaries, Marnie. Remember your boundaries," he said as I climbed into my boyfriend's truck.